It’s the last day of school. Lesson ended at 3pm. I swear I wasn’t listening for the whole entire day. I was busy doing my poster. Well at least listened a bit during the first two meeting. But the third meeting I wasn’t listening at all. I completed my poster. Only waiting for it to be printed. Lol. That will be on Tuesday I think.

Who would have thought that I could complete it within 2 days with no disruptions of coz.

Weekends working. Weekdays busy with dry run and helping out and also my PP evaluation. Then the next weekend work. I guess I am working either on Monday or Wednesday. Worst come to worst, on both days. Sigh.

Somehow I am not looking to my birthday. So Zara don’t have to go through all the trouble to celebrate it for me ok. Its not a big thing at all. Lets just enjoy ourselves at the camp. So yeah. Haha. I will still sayang you even if you didn’t celebrate with me. hehe. I make sure you, daiyu n saiful don’t bully me. lol.

I had enough I guess. I should just learn to put a stop for all this. I should not get angry so easily. A lot of people have told me to control my temper. Yes I know that. I am trying ok people. Its not like as if I am not trying. But I cant help it if I am unable to control it. I know I have always been the fire. It will take some time for me to be the water. Its not that I don’t want. Be patient ok.
its not like as if I like losing someone. It was hard for me yesterday. I shouldn’t have cried. Coz I ended up waking with swollen eyes. At that point of time, I just wished I could tell someone. I just wished I could let it out somewhere. But I didn’t. all I could do was cry.
its not that I hate you ok b.

I am so tired of working. Seriously. Not fun ok. Although not a lot of people went in to play, still tired coz you have to stand all the way. And you just need to find something to do.

I failed to go school again today. I was so looking forward to go school. I miss Zara and Yana badly. Seriously. But this lazy me cant even get out of bed. I wanted to go bathe at 6.45am. but then I just couldn’t wake up. I don’t know why. I must go school on Thursday and Friday.

I must make sure I go school continuously when school reopen. At least for 4 weeks straight. I just need motivation to go school. Can someone help me. sigh.. even bf cant help me. he cant even force me. haha. I know I am so lazy.. tell me I must go school everyday please!

I don’t know if I should go for the Halloween party at ETP next Friday. I told Jun Jie if he wants me to go, can. But he must get me a big present. Haha. but not cartons of coke cans again like last year.

Note to self and people. Yours truly birthday is coming pretty soon!.. haha.. turning 19 babe. like finally know..